| Title: me, myself and not.. you.
Posted: Tuesday, March 2, 2010 @ 12:11 AM |
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i find that i talk to myself a lot o_o as in a lot a lot.
i'm sure its influence from everything else in my stuffed up life but hey, at the end of the day, who else to rely on except yourself? (not saying i don't trust anyone else, just i like talking to myself. a lot.)
just feels a lot more comfortable and all. like this blog. in a way i'm talking to myself. i'm telling myself to stop talking to myself even though i like it because i get weird looks.
even on monday; i really didnt want to do sport and walked outside, it was sprinkling and i went: "YES. IT'S FREAKING SPRINKLING".
i bet i looked even worse than year 7s at that time. but who gives a shit?
seriously though; talking to yourself is like working things out PROPERLY. without all those stupid words swimming around in your head yelling out at you.
if you think i'm insane then screw you.
i've also found that when i miss my train and hop onto another one, i start hitting myself on the head yelling 'idiot. idiot. idiot.' this was on the bevo express by the way; which is packed to the rafters (if trains have that) and people were staring at me weird.
from talking to myself; you probably shouldn't care as much about what you look like in public. seriously? who gives a crap anymore. its not like you're ever gonna see them again!
it's a goddamn train! one girl scolding herself for sleeping in is not going to make a big difference to the day.
i also realised how much i love the feeling when i wake up and its nice and cozy in bed and i have no intentions of waking up. at all. explains why i'm always late now.
i'll eventually try and catch my train. apparently everyone just sleeps or something so yeah. and i like that. just sleeping. and the warmth. damn i should bring a pillow to school.
btw happy bday to nancy and michelle even though i know you don't read this. oh you dorks you.
i sleep a lot in class now. why?
1. class is boring,
2. nothing else is entertaining enough for me to keep awake.
3. even BRICK BREAKER isn't entertaining anymore.
therefore sleep.
you know what the irony is? the fact that i kind of vowed to be a better student today. except i only mean't it in math.. so it's still all good.
as of now i have to..
- do well in math
- FREAKING GET AN A IN GEOGRAPHY.
meaning im free to sleep in english. nothing wrong with that~ it's shakespeare anyway i dont give a crap.
for some reason, i really want to dance a lot again, like i kinda used to. haha.
i dunno i kinda just start moving and all that and its fun. a lot more fun than just sitting around i guess.
bleh not bothered typing anymore.
actually i just remembered something. haha. convenience much.
i HATE typing in the evening. as in i really cannot be bothered and i really don't want to.
it's just bothersome really == and i don't really want to type and talk and everything. all the internet talking and all that is getting to my head and i don't feel like it anymore. haha.
i prefer life-to-life convos thanks. just feels more real, not fake, no lies, just plain real.
