| Title: past-life
Posted: Monday, May 3, 2010 @ 11:54 PM |
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hi. there was meant to be a post like.. 3 days ago, but hell i was too tired and yeah. but now i have time because 1) subs for my drama are still in members only mode 2) i have nothing better to do. and 3) my legs hurt.
anyway.. before i get on to what i've done lately, i'm going to talk about a little thing... do you believe in a second life? after i read something (albeit a fanfiction with a yaoi coupling) i thought.. 'is it possible that this is my second life? my third life?'
basically the story is that theres these two people, theyre in love etc etc. they both get killed at the same time (gun shots) and then they meet each other in this place. not sure where to call it, but it's there- the place where your future after you're dead is decided. they just realise they love each other and beg to have a second chance at life to stay together. the dude who controls what happens decides to give them their second life, but doesn't guarantee that they'll meet each other again, or fall in love.
in the second life, they do meet but obviously their memories are gone and crap and they don't know. but then one of them die. from a car crash. and the other lives to be old with lotsa grandkids etc.
they go back to the dude (i'm just gonna call him dude from now on) and they realise they've screwed up another life and asks for one last chance.
and then yeah in the third life they fall in love and live happily ever after whatever.
but it made me wonder, am i meant to find someone? had i lived a life before this and had someone i cherished so much to the point that i beg the dude to give me life again? am i really mean't to find someone that i've been waiting an entire lifetime for? or even longer?
i guess in a way, this is currently my definition for 'soulmate'. the person that you've been waiting for a lifetime to find. though you may've fucked the first lifetime, or it may have gone wrong, you can fix it up in this lifetime right? because now i'm not afraid of death all too much now. sure i still don't want to die, but i know that if i die, i have another shot right? and i can make it work better that time.
i'm not saying something like 'oh, if you screw up, just die. you can try again later'. screwing up may just be the way things happen and are mean't to work out. but i'm just saying...
actually.. what the hell am i saying anyway?
whatever. just.. fearing death isn't something that you always want to do. for one- in harry potter you'll turn into a ghost. who wants that ah?
that was a rather sentimental piece of writing. talking about anything else now will probably ruin it. oh wells.
anyway, last night was junior dance and dear lord, there was SUCH a poor turnout. there were probably only 250-300 people max this year and yeah. but it was still fun, i danced the night (most of it anyway) away and it was really freaking hot in there.
thats all i really wanted to say. i really don't have that much to say about JD. oh. i ate pepper lunch beforehand. damnit i want to go again. so freaking niceeee.
OH MY GOD. well would you look at that. my subs finally FINALLY came out. oh joy! goodbye!
the next post will be about my brother most likely. so yeah. hahahhaaaa
