| Title: hey, listen!
Posted: Tuesday, August 17, 2010 @ 4:55 AM |
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i love navi now. not in the game; but when i can bug gemma with constantly going 'hey! listen! but hell damn, she was an annoying little turd in the original game.
today i baked something for gemmas bday. yeah i know right! i have hone skills! not really though, since it was in 2 boxes. i have a very good explanation for that too! i ran out of butter. i was reduced to getting those little packets you get at mcdonalds and just shovelling those out. but no worries, i got then 2 days ago, so im sure its fine.
anyway, whats the definition of a best friend? i can't help but wonder how it's meant to feel like, and how you know that you are indeed best friends. i never had a best friend in primary. i had one 'alright' friend as i labelled her, but she'd be constantly moody and depressing so thats why i called her 'alright'. everyone else in primary can die in a hole though. i hate them. (i don't mean literally, i just really dislike them)
so yeah. how are you mean't to define best friend? when you say best friend does it extend to two people? 3? 4? when one person says 'you're my best friend' does that mean you have to look at them in that way too? how are you mean't to distinguish the line from friend, to best friend?
WHY DO SOCIAL ISSUES LIKE THIS PERPLEX ME SO? THIS SUCKS. why can't social crap like this be easier. it'd make high school a crap load easier to deal with too.
to be honest i know that i have 'close friends' and 'friends' as well as 'people i need to stay away from around ___ of every month' but i can't distinguish the lines between them anymore. it's hard to tell really.. i can't tell because facts like 'i don't see them enough', 'they're really really bad around ____', and 'i'm scared of them sometimes' seem to cloud my thoughts. but in my mind, there are always exceptions. many actually; i barely have any lines/categories. sort of. not too sure on that one.
to be honest, there are a few people that fall into a special category. they're the 'i can talk to this person whenever' category. where it might've been a while since we've seriously talked, but i can still maintain conversation well, as well as confess whats been happening and have fun with them freely. the only problem is the fact that i don't talk to them a lot. which kinda irks me, because they're actually wonderful people, yet for some reason i don't attempt to keep on talking to them. it's weird really. i think im purely an idiot for not talking to them as much as i should.
i'm honestly really confused on how a best friend is mean't to be. i've always been told that a bestfriend will always be there for you when you need to talk, and will never betray you, or some other stuff off tumblr like that. who gives more than they take. but what about the person taking?
but it seems near impossible; at least... i think so. a perfect best friend with all that in them would be a hard life, especially if they had more than one. it'll be hard to continually give and keep everyone sane and healthy. but then it'd suck cause you know. they'd get off days too, and when that happens, they can be seen as a jackass and what not. freaking society is confuddling.
i'm pretty sure i DO have a best friend(s), but im just not sure really. because you know how times change and people do too? yeah o_O not sure. not sure at all. maybe its better having a few super close friends rather than one best friend. I DONT KNOW.
note: BTW, i'm not being depressive or angsty or some shit and it's the way im typing, i'm just really wondering all this stuff o_O i wonder weird crap i know.
FRIGG THAT WAS A SENTIMENTAL POST. not really but whatever. contemplative! anyway no one mention this to me at school because it'll be super awkward for me and i'll run for it. kthnxbai.
BTW. HAPPY BIRTHDAY GEMMA + TRACEY.
