| Title: compromise.
Posted: Friday, September 24, 2010 @ 3:13 AM |
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i thought for a little bit, and i realised that if i were to ever get a tattoo, i'd want it to be two little wings on my backside. black ink.
kinda over done i think, im not too sure. but i like the idea of it. i wouldn't want it too high that it shows through even my normal shirts, but i wouldn't want it too low either. sometimes i think having a simple tattoo on my wrist or my slightly above my hip would look good too.
i don't know why i suddenly started thinking about tattoos o_O it's not something i actually want. i'd prefer it if i lived my life without ink on me, because when i grow old and wrinkly a tattoo will look so out of place. but just saying; if i ever had to, i'd do something like that. wrist because i don't wear many bracelets and i really like my hands, backside because thats kind of where wings generally are, and above my hip because not many people will see it.
what the crap am i even saying now? just saying; if i ever had to get a tattoo, it would most likely be on my backside or hip.
anyway, yesterday i got caught jigging by my mum. you know how i'm really gullible? i inherited that from mum. which is pretty good actually, cause it helps in lying about what happened.
i don't get why people say i'm a bad liar. i'm pretty good when i need to lie. i can look people in the eye and lie the shit out of myself. i half want to try that. i half want to go into a cafe or something, sit by someone and just start chatting, and when they ask me about myself, i'll make up absurd crap. it'd seem kinda fun o_O
i suck at lying for crappy reasons though. i keep stuttering and it sounds really obvious that i can't lie. thats probably why everyone thinks im so shit at lying xD but when i need to, i can lie. either that or i'm a terrible liar and my mums super gullible.
anyway, when things start to have two options in which one can mean i'm safe, and one can mean i'm in deep shit, i tend to compromise.
not with my mum. more like whoever watches over me or whoever controls everything or some shit. most of the time it's stars. i have this special star! its always out in the night sky, and most of the time it's first. well.. first in the ones i see anyway. but basically it's the brightest star that appears every night. i'm actually pretty sure it's a planet, but i just refer it as a star.
that star will probably disappear once summer starts cause of all the rotational crap. but for the time being it's my star that i wish on. i'm pretty sure theres crap loads of people who own that star, but its mine now bitches!
anyway, when i'm in deep shit i start saying stuff in my head like 'if you do this for me, i won't wish on you or 11:11 for an entire week!'
for some reason i think it's a pretty spankin' deal.. cause you know, thats 14 wishes. sometimes when i get what i want, i regret saying that because now i can't wish for stuff i want :/ like now.
do any of you do that? just randomly try to compromise with destiny or something? in my opinion it sorta works! you have to really mean it though, or else it can tell and it'll be all like 'WHAT A LIAR. IM GOING TO DO WHAT SHE DOESNT WANT ME TO DO *BAM!*'
yeah.
thats betraying a star. anyway, my parents seem to have forgotten about my little note. lets hope they don't remember! see you!
