first i got up for swimming and i was still sick, so i was really iffy about swimming because i'll probably be really tired to swim that much but whatever, i still went. at swimming i did get tired pretty fast but it was okay, i still made it through

but then the teacher (who is like 50 something btw) told me to get out of the pool and learn how to do breastroke properly. okay i know how to do breastroke properly lady, i'm just having an off day and don't feel like straining myself too much.

so basically she tells me to lie on the floor (which was cold and hard and wet) and was shoving my leg and everything. FAR OUT. and she kept telling me to spread my legs and stuff and i was like 'how the fuck do i do that, i'm on freaking ground'

and so this other lady also walked past and was like 'how tall is this girl and she's learning how to do it properly'

yeah screw you lady, just keep walking past and leave me alone.

so they made me do 10 laps of just breastroke and i already hate the thing as it is. in my mind i was yelling at the teacher and complaining about how shit my day was becoming :L

fuck, i swear i should stop saying that. i think it jinxes my day or something, because the rest of the day kept getting worse.

for one i had to rush to finish my tutor work, and then when i got tutor i didnt even have to hand it in. and then we got our test marks back and i got 63%. the average was 78%.

far out when i heard it i was really disappointed because i thought i did alright. i must've screwed up a formula, and then that would be why a lot of it had been wrong. i'm really disappointed in myself already and ARGH.

not to mention this was the class i moved down from, i couldnt have seriously gotten that bad in such a short amount of time. i can do better than this, i should be above average for crying out loud. i'm meant to be moving back up to the upper class next time we have an ATB but i can't even see that happening now. i'd be lucky if i didn't even move down. i'm really tired of doing shit when i thought i did good. after tests i can't even tell if i've done good or not anymore.

and then i found out that one of my friends is gonna leave tipps. far out, i only really sit with 2 people in class and the other one doesn't always come and it's just.. urgh. i really don't want her to leave, because she's really nice. and i'd really miss her.

this gives me more incentive to move up or drop out btw. because if i don't have her i'd rather leave the class. i either move up or get out, i don't really care anymore now. one or the other soon. please.

and also, i have a feeling the coaching centre called home and told them that i was doing shit in class or something. because my dad was really silent on the way home, and the first thing my mum asked was how i did in my test.

far out. this day sucks.