so basically i was at home with my baby cousin (whom i kind of hate) and her brother and my brother. so that was 4 of us. we were in the kitchen playing wii and suddenly glass broke and everything and turns out someone totally sniped my baby cousin. when i say baby cousin, i dont actually mean a baby. she's like ten or something, total brat too. she used to steal a lot of my stuff back in year 7 if anyone remembers.

ANYWAYY. a while later its late at night and i had gone downstairs to get a drink of water in the middle of the night. (i never do this btw, too scared) for some reason that night my brother was sleeping in the living room which is next to the kitchen.

and for some reason, i got this weird feeling and i started crouching in the kitchen because i was scared that someone would shoot me or something. my dad came downstairs and was asking why i was crouching and looking like someone was about to shoot me or something.

then glass smashed again and bam! bro's dead. for some reason i'm totally calm though, and throughout the entire dream, i wasn't crying at all.. cool.

anywayyyy... so a while later my grandmas over and my parents have to go with her and when i ask why my mum says 'because it's the anniversary of the ironing board'

NO JOKE OKAY. IM NOT KIDDING. THIS IS WHAT I REMEMBER IN MY DREAM.

i don't even know why in my mind, my parents leave me home alone when people have been gunning down our family.

..POINT IS. I HATE NIGHTMARES. i couldn't sleep for hours because i kept thinking someone was looking at my back. you know that feeling right? when you feel someone staring at you or something. i hate that feeling.

not to mention, the time i woke up was probs 3am or some shit.

i never look at clocks when i wake up in the middle of the night anymore. too scared to. you know the entire thing about 3am being the time where ghosts and spirits come out and stuff? yeahh thats why :L if i wake up and realise it is 3am, i'll get too paranoid to sleep again.

HURRHURR. yeah i'm really paranoid at night. i hate the dark, i don't look at clocks when i wake up in the middle of the night and i need my closet to be COMPLETELY closed. and i can't be facing my closet either cause of all the mirrors. i'd be scared shitless okay, no kidding. also i'm really scared of lying on one side of my bed because everyone tells me that if i sleep on only one side, a spirit will lie down next to me. i want a single bed now D;

i normally have to be facing the door as well when i sleep. because i'm seriously that scared. and if i'm really really scared, blankets all the way up to my neck. even if it's summer or something, i'd rather die of overheating than some spirit dragging me down the hallway okay?

I'M SO SCARED OF EVERYTHING OKAYY.

when i move out i need a roommate. i seriously need one. you know what'd be even better? if we didn't have that great of an apartment and could just sleep in the same room. THAT'D BE SO GOOD FOR ME. PEOPLE IN THE ROOM.

i sleep a lot better when theres someone else (that i'm aware of okay. not some fucked up ghost) in the room and when theres a bit of noise.

like snoring. someone else's snoring calms me down when im sleeping. but not crazy loud snoring, because i wouldn't be able to sleep :L but just really soft snoring would be nice.

i'm so weird why am i typing this.