i don't know, i don't think i'd be able to live with my life forever at 'okay' - 'great' because it'd be too boring. at one point last year, my life seemed too.. good. things were going well and nothing was going bad. but at times i found myself half wishing that something bad would happen to me, just to break the cycle you know? there's only so much happiness you can take before happiness doesn't really feel like happiness anymore.

but that's the thing about life, and you're going to get ups and downs and things happen for their own reasons. and for you not to get bored. so although next time i run by a bad time i'm going to complain, i don't think i'd ever wish for my life to be completely perfect. because that's boring.

anyway, i like sitting on my rooftop. i realised that i could climb up there a few years back but i've only went up there a handful of times.

yeah it's pretty dirty and theres moss and dried bird poop, but it's nice up there. and it's really easy to get up there if you've ever been to my place. you can just step onto the balcony, hop up onto the roof and sit there. and if you're feeling particularly dangerous you can hop onto the higher roof, but i haven't done that yet because i'm scared shitless. and also because everyone knows each other in my street so if one of them see me they're gonna go apeshit and probably think i'm gonna jump :L

i don't go anywhere near the edge or anything though. i stay as close to the house as possible because i'm kinda scared of heights, but at the same time love it. it's a really nice view up there. especially when it's during the afternoon and it's sunny. kinda sucks that it was windy today so i only stayed up there for 10 minutes before i ended up getting a headache :L

hrmgg.. studying for exams, i'm kinda almost done with my math notes? i have a lot to get through don't i :( i'll make it through eventually. it's alright i'll get there sometime.

so yeah. today was a good day; please let it stay that way.