this is going to be a birthday/camp post and will be INCREDIBLY lengthy so. sorry. was meant to have this up earlier.

[ DONT READ THIS IS YOU LIKE GRAMMAR AND LOGIC AND SENSE BECAUSE THIS ENTIRE POST IS NONE OF THE FORMER AND IM JUST AN EMOTIONAL MESS, YOU'RE ALL LUCKY I DIDNT DO THIS ON THE ACTUAL DAY IT'D JUST BE AGHSjkdlaF:LOVEkjahsdfFEELINGkjskibfegsfCAN'THOLDTHEM IN ]

so if you didnt already know (which im sure you do because at every chance i got i was like 'GUESS WHATS IN 4 MONTHS/WEEKS/DAYS/HOURS etc') i turned 16 last week and i had been incredibly excited about it for like. a whole 3 weeks before.

and normally i dont get as excited as i was cause normally its just 'yay birthday cool!' but this year i was really 'OMGOMGOMOGOGMGMSGMOMAYEYAGBRIAN IM 16 SOON'

it wasn't until the last few days leading up to my birthday that i kinda started losing all the excitement and turning it into a 'meh' like a really big 'meh'. didn't help that i got reports the day before my birthday and i was pretty upset about that and feeling like shit and everything so my birthday didn't actually start off that well. like when it struck midnight it was pretty shit and everything LOL like nothing happened at all HAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHHA.

and i was just really tired from reports and everything and stuff (yes nat, so tired that you slept at 2 that night, totally)

but omg, i was so happy that i stayed til 2 that night because lots of lovely people texted me to say happy birthday at ungodly hours of the night *cough* 1.53am wat *cough* and i was really really touched :') thankyou to everyone who texted me and said happy birthday to me and everything it made everything so much better.

to certain people:
1) thankyou so much :') i love you so much thank you thank you you were the first person to wish me a happy birthday on the actual day and it made me feel really really really happy knowing you stayed up just to send a text to me even though i knew you went to bed a while before <3 love you love you love you

2) omg i love you so much, how many texts did you waste on me you crazy ass you're too sweet :') waking up and finding your message made my whole morning so much better because it was so shit i love you lots and lots and lots you fag


uhm but yeah i think i was like a pregnant woman that day i swear with all my feels running around everywhere luls.

i went swimming and it was a really good hour like, yeah. i was non stop smiling the entire time because all of the people in my two lanes were constantly saying happy birthday to me and joking around about how the 'fat baby finally turned 12'; thanks guys. really. like im not super close to my cousin or my other family friend but they were so fucking sweet to me the entire time despite calling me a fat baby the entire time.

you're all too sweet to me :') (fast forward a week and theyre douchebags again)

:')

and all my younger cousins were all like 'I KNOW WHAT TODAY IS I KNOW WHAT TODAY ISSSSSSSSS' and trying to catch my attention cause they know that if they get it right then i'll probably spoil them or something. darn kids. i love you all <3 too bad i couldnt see vee on sunday cause of camp though, i miss her :( she would've given me a big hug cause shes a cutie pie

then at the end of the lesson when we were doing dives i was about to dive in but then my coach was like 'STOP' and i was like 'asdfghjkd;lghiidtn' and almost fell into the pool. but then they just all shoved me into this weird circle thing and handed me a cupcake with a smiley face on it and a candle and was like 'lol happy birthday you baby' and my two lanes and my two coaches sang happy birthday.

..like 3 times cause they kept fucking it up LOLOLOL YOU ALL SUCK. I LOVE YOU ALL

and dawwww omg it was really sweet cause my coach was being a total dick half the lesson and making us do heaps of laps so it was really sweet HAHHAHAHAHHAHA.

i lub you too tai (tae? thai? what?) i know you love me too despite only coming to half my lessons and even then, coming 20 minutes late HAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHHA. IM SORRY I DIDNT KNOW YOUR NAME UNTIL LAST YEAR DESPITE HAVING YOU FOR LIKE 6 YEARS MAH BAD.

AND I LOVE YOU TOO OTHER CHICK THAT COACHES ME, YOU AND YOUR AMERICAN ACCENT AND Y'ALL.

okay sorry if im rambling so much you guys can all skip this post btw its just a lot of emotional word vomit.

i love my swimming team/class/whatever the fuck it is <3 we're like a huge family (for me, quite literally cause i'm related to half of them) since we've all known each other either since birth or a good 5-6 years or so. i'm gonna be so upset if we ever have to stop seeing each other :( and i know it might be soon because the oldest 3 in our group are doing hsc this year and i dont think theyre gonna continue swimming after graduation and i'm in year 12 next year and might eventually stop, and tai (?) is getting fucking old and should get a proper job instead of yelling at kids to swim faster LOL

:'(

anyway after swimming and giving out lots of hugs when i wouldnt soak them, went out to lunch with the family at some restaurant near parra by the river or something. ate lobster (ew)

'we're gonna go to a really nice restaurant for your birthday!'
'oohh what're we gonna eat'
'lobster'
'...but i hate lobster'
'yeah but everyone else likes it so too bad'

...

yeah mom love you too.

wasn't too bad, mum was joking around about now that i'm older i can drink wine and shit (disregard the fact that she's given me west coast and shit since i was 12 LOL) and i think she took it a bit too literally cause she poured a shit load of white wine into my glass (but then again she had drank a glass or two already and shes a lightweight apparently)

anyway that wasn't a good idea i shouldn't have drank anything it didnt even taste that great cause later i had a bit of a headache but that was about it.

terry leeeee saw dis fag who i hate but gave me food so it's allllll good.

came home and had banh xeo cause it's my favourite food so mum made it specially for me :)

not much else happened through the nighttt i thinkkkkkkkk i talked to a few old friends and then packed for camp and that was about it. HAHAHAHHA. FUCKING LONG ASS BIRTHDAY POST MUCH HOLY SHIT.

and thankyou to everyone who got me something :') i love you all so much thank you so much you guys know me so well with all the make up skincare nail stuff LOLOLOLOLOL and food.

and i felt incredibly touched (as well as embarassed but hey its okay) when people started singing at camp and shit cause i feel kinda awkward when i get put on the spot like that BUT GAWD I LOVE YOU ALL SO MUCH OMG I LOVE EACH AND EVERY ONE OF YOU, YOU ALL MAKE ME FEEL SO WANTED AND SPECIAL AND EVERYTHING OH GAWD ;^;

like weird moment but ms grant said happy birthday too and i was like '..thankss' and omg so sweet you are the best year advisor ever thank god we have you and not mcdermott.

i love you all so much :') just everyone in general, everyone who said something or whatever i dont know i dont care you all make me feel so special thank you thank you thank you thank you thank you. fucking best birthday ever even though it started off so shit. i love you all.




...okay no i need to split my birthday and camp posts i can't emotionally blab on like this, gawd nat how can you do this to all your readers, im so sorry.